sparse time

there is noting that i wanna do
but i must to do it

i think that is enough
i try to convice myself
there is a reward at the end
but i don't know

...

often times the really importat things come in together
like a collapse
and the only consecuence:
tiredness
other times:
disapointment
loneliness
emptyness
sadness

...

feeling the life is not a peaceful place
i miss the world like a simple walk to see someone
just for the pleasure to do it

...

and the most hateful thing is the remorse
you must to to something you don't want to do
and the time
each second
of sparse time...
the life seem eternal and i remember:

the time is a relative thing, let me tell you
i have lived a millenium

but might i wouldn't want to live twice.